Kamis, 08 Juli 2010

Secret Of My Life


Soul....My empty soul...
I don't know how long it take...

I'am feeling like this...Empty...Cold...numb....
i feel my life not perfect.


Because no life is perfect.



But i ever have a perfect life...

I have a family that loving me anymore

Friendship that appreciate to me

Boyfriend that give me more attantion.

And always be here if i need him.


But everything is gone....Disappear from me.

After his gone...everything is gone.

Only one that survival

My Family...They are loving me anymore...

This is a reason why i'am still survive in this world.


Everytime i try to killing my selfI rack my self...

But I'am revive...It's can't solve my problem...

Just like a loser

I dont want tobe a loser
For all this...i try to survive on my life.


And endure the consequences.
I open new page in my life


Everyday I walk alone

Everything i do alone.

No friend...no love..and nobody care with me.



All the thing to be cold...stuffy...

And all the thing is dummy

My life...my walk...even my smile...


Every night i'am crying...

Thinking about the journey of my life.

No Love anymore.

I can't love to someone...to him...even to my self.



Sometime i think and say...i hate my self... i hate my life.


Everyone look at me as beautiful and graceful girl.

More people loving me..and they said i can choose more choices.

They judge me Without look the other side of me... "Weak".

I CAN'T LOVE TO EVERYONE....EVEN TO MY SELF.

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